I think about my mortality a lot. This has been a recent development – within the last 2-3 years anyway. I thought it was just me being a morbid person but maybe I’m experiencing my midlife crisis? Instead of buying a convertible sports car and banging the hottie at work I’m buying bicycles and sensing the end? Maybe.
As cliché as it sounds, time really does speed up the older I get. It really seems to be flying by to me now… it seems like just a few weeks ago, I was biking to work with an ice beard but that was 5 months ago. Weeks zoom by and days barely register. I worry that my time is going to zip past before I get to do all the things I want.
Another recent development is that perhaps these days I’m living right now are the best days of my life. Don’t get me wrong… my life is actually pretty good right now. I ride a bike to work nearly every day. I feel great and I’m healthy. Jen is healthy and our life is relatively worry free but as a younger person in my 20’s and 30’s, I always thought that the best was yet to come. I console myself by believing there are lots of people in their 50’s and 60’s thinking “Oh to be 40 again!”
Feeling like my time is limited and precious, I’ve started thinking seriously about a bicycle tour across the US… it’ll happen within the next two to three years. I know I can do the ride, physically but I just have to plan the financial side of things.
Anyway, O’Brother’s music sounds like I feel inside.