I sometimes really hate night time…

I find that the wall I build up around my emotions to function during the day is the thinnest and weakest at this time. There’s about a three-hour window in the evening, before going to sleep where this happens. Not every night but more than I’d like and it can vary in intensity.

All the things that are on my mind and bothering me are really at the forefront of my thoughts and I’m unable to do much about it other than to just be with those feelings. That thing I can do during the day, where I’m able to compartmentalize, reframe and rationalize the negative emotions using my brain, just seems to be wore out after doing that all day.

I’m not sure what to do about it.

Re: Rudy Giuliani accuses Robert Mueller of collusion

The former New York City mayor said Mueller’s investigation is “illegitimate” and questioned why the special counsel wasn’t delving into the dossier compiled by former British intelligence officer Christopher Steele that contained unsubstantiated but salacious details about Trump.“

Can it get any worse? I mean, what do we need to know that this is a totally illegitimate investigation based on a report, a dossier that was paid for by Hillary Clinton and the Democrats — probably the biggest illegality so far, the biggest collusion so far,” Giuliani told Hannity.

Source: Rudy Giuliani accuses Robert Mueller of collusion

This is a completely false claim by Giuliani and is easily discredited.

Re: I Don’t Want To Talk About My Tattoos With Strange Men

Recently Amanda and I were grabbing some dinner at Cheddars when a woman walked up to me to comment on my tattoos. I didn’t mind and generally do enjoy when people – men or women –  want to talk to me about my tattoos but I also understand I have lots of large, tattooed, white guy privilege. I understand that the perception and experience of women is very different. Amanda tagged me on this because it reminded her of our experience at Cheddars.

But lately I’ve been noticing that nearly every interaction I have with strange men about my tattoos, even when they aren’t street-harassing or being explicitly sexual, ends up feeling creepy and predatory.

This quote from the piece really has me being introspective and examining my motives and I have to be honest here. I have used tattoos as a reason to speak to women at bars or concerts and I’m mortified that I could have come off as creepy and predatory. It seems the comments Emily is writing about seem to happen when she’s just moving through public space. Like, she’s at the grocery store or a coffee shop and somebody walks up and makes a comment and is inspecting her body.  Ok whew, I’ve never done that.

In general, I try to be pretty aware of how my presence is affecting women in my general area. Like, if I’m walking to my car and there’s a woman ahead of me, I might slow down to give her some more space or I’ve even crossed the street so she doesn’t have a large, tattooed guy following her.

So anyhoo, my take away from this is just to be aware of this and to be mindful that I’m not doing this in public, non-socializing spaces.

Re: Trump uses latest raucous rally to slam recent press coverage

Trump opened up with a chat they had after the Singapore Summit.

“I go home, I see my wife. I say, ‘Honey, we’re gonna get the greatest [news coverage] — I just did something so great today. I just stopped missiles from being launched every two seconds in Korea,’” Trump recounted.

“Baby, what I did with North Korea was great. I got along great with Chairman Kim,” the president recalled saying, noting how that was “a good thing, not a bad thing.”

“And you know what baby, I got the hostages back. I didn’t have to pay anything. And you know what honey? They’re not testing anymore nuclear [weapons]. They haven’t had a test in nine months…And you know what else? They’re not sending rockets over Japan…They haven’t launched one in nine months.

”Trump went on to say that he told Melania, “Ohhh, the media is gonna treat me, finally, so good” as a result of the meeting with North Korean leader Kim Jong Un.

“I mean, it’s gonna be so great baby. I’m looking so forward to getting up tomorrow and reading those dying papers,” he recalled telling the first lady. “And what do I read? What do I read? ‘Donald Trump isn’t moving fast enough.’ Can you believe it?”

Good grief. This dude really just has a daddy complex. Somebody didn’t get enough praise as a child.

Re: Sessions: ‘A dangerous movement is eroding our religious freedom’

Conservative groups immediately praised Sessions for promising to protect deeply held religious convictions, though critics of the Trump administration have repeatedly voiced concerns that the attorney general’s stance undercuts LGBT rights and favors the rights of Christians over those of other faiths.

Eh. I don’t think religious freedom should be used to discriminate against LGBT people. We all have a right to practice religion right up to the point where it infringes on another person’s right.

As Trumpism takes hold, Republicans face increasing pressure to embrace policies they once opposed – The Washington Post

Trump signaled he plans to take a combative approach to the upcoming NATO summit, questioning the value of the alliance and warning Germany during a raucous political rally in Montana last week that “I don’t know how much protection we get by protecting you.”

I’m not really surprised by anything anymore but it’s still pretty frustrating. Ok sure, it’s not exactly cool that EU countries do not fulfill their NATO obligations to funding the alliance but I think it’s simple-minded to dismiss how much influence we have in the world because of our military presence. While not always the case, I still think we’ve generally been a force for good. And if not us, then who? China?

“They make it impossible to do business in Europe, and yet they come in and they sell their Mercedes and their BMWs to us,” Trump said. “So we have $151 billion in trade deficits with the E.U. And on top of that, they kill us with NATO. They kill us.”

Again, this strikes me as a pretty simple-minded, zero sum game attitude.

Pretty great example of why a business person isn’t the best person to run a country. Business attitudes just don’t apply to running a country.

Re: US officials ‘had no idea’ Trump was making calls on cell phone

President Donald Trump reportedly gave out his personal cell phone number to foreign leaders shortly after taking office.

White House officials were shocked after a summary of a conversation was released without their knowledge.

US officials reportedly had to rely on Trump’s memory of the call for details.

Following the incident, US officials insisted Trump adhere to the federal records law and route all calls with foreign leaders through the Situation Room.

Oh FFS. But her emails.

It’s hot outside. Now does global warming exist?

Now does he think global warming is real? It’s really hot outside!

On this 4th, we’re as divided as ever

I’ve not been feeling celebratory on this Independence Day. Honestly, it’s been a while since I’ve really cared about the 4th. It’s mostly just been an exercise in frustration as we try to get ourselves close enough for a good viewing spot of the Nashville fireworks display.

I’m not proud of our country. I’m not proud of our President. I’m not proud of the people who elected the President.

I want our country to be such so that everybody wants to stand for the anthem and the principles our country stands for. I have a distain for those who would try to shame people into standing when the country doesn’t work as well for a significant percent of our country. Women’s rights, LGBTQ rights, minority rights and environmental protections are under attack by this administration. He’s dismantling the institutions from the inside and it concerns me greatly.

Only 19% of the total population voted for Trump. Let that sink in for a minute. Our country is making a dramatic turn to the right because 19% of the population wants it that way.

I anticipate people will say imagine how conservatives felt during Obama’s terms and they think this is just politics as normal. I think that’s a false equivalency. Conservatives seem to think that giving other groups equal rights, somehow takes away from their rights. If looked at through a certain lens I can understand. Kim Davis is unable to use her official government office to deny gay couples a marriage license because of her religion for instance. They say religious freedom is under assault. It’s not but you don’t get to use religious freedom to withhold rights from others.

Our country survived a civil war but it’s under assault from within now by a narcissistic, small minded, unprincipled man who has no regard or understanding of our countries principles. You’ll have to excuse me if I don’t feel like celebrating that.

Re: Supreme Court Upholds Trump’s Travel Ban 

WASHINGTON — President Trump acted lawfully in imposing limits on travel from several predominantly Muslim nations, the Supreme Court ruled on Tuesday.

The vote was 5 to 4, with the court’s conservatives in the majority.

Emphasis mine.

Isn’t it really cool how a minority of our country – the people who elected POTUS45 – is getting what it wants against the will of the majority?

Isn’t it cool how the Republican Congress was able to postpone a vote on President Obama’s Supreme Court Nominee?